Thanks to The Family Studio for their BRCA Support
After my expanders came out on November 16, I went into a radio silence of sorts. That is, unless you follow me on Facebook where I managed an update or two. I think I just might have been tired. Now, after making it through the predicted ‘end of the world,’ enjoying big smiles from sweet eyes on Christmas and welcoming 2013 with the 6th birthday of our New Year baby, things seem to be getting back to some semblance of normal. This very sentiment was underscored tonight while reading a good night story to my 4 ½ year old. A short book about a boy and his robot resonated with my aspiring superhero. He snuggled in resting his head gently on my chest.
After a few pages, he poked my breast and said, “It’s squishy.” Lying there I couldn’t help but smile. “Yes,” I responded, “doesn’t that feel better?” Out of context this may seem an odd exchange. However, in true nature of a buffer-less child, it was perfectly sweet.
The tissue expanders that I donned from July 25 until November 16 not only hurt, they were harder than rocks and certainly not worth snuggling up against during story time. Using his 4-year-old-drawl, Carter continued, “Does this mean you don’t have to go back to the hospital for surgery? You don’t have to go back to the doctor???”
“Well…yes – for the most part,” I responded, “I’ll still see a doctor but not for any more surgeries. Doesn’t that sound nice?” He poked my breast again and seemed satisfied with my response. With that, I was essentially dismissed to finish the book, tuck him in, plant a good night kiss on his cute little face and make sure his door was left open just so.
As I walked away, a smile was still spread across my face. While the major part of my surgical BRCA journey is nearing an end – a few ‘tweaking’ procedures remain – it feels good to have the big ones behind me. My mind feels clear after a medicine haze, and my energy level is regaining daily. I have time now to do things that I want to do with the family, for myself, with work and for Hereditary Breast and Ovarian Cancer (HBOC) outreach.
I am hosting the first FORCE quarterly meeting of Southern Colorado early February, for there is work to be done. It’s time to connect even more on a local level to discuss treatment options, learn from experts and offer a caring ear as others in the area navigate a BRCA diagnosis or simply have questions regarding genetic testing and HBOC. If you would like to attend, please RSVP to firstname.lastname@example.org.
BTW, 2013 will bring some fun along the way with the annual BRACgirl.com Dance Party scheduled for July 13, 2013! Save the date and come cut-a-rug once again to raise money for research & development. 100% of donations collected will be sent to F.O.R.C.E. (Facing Our Risk of Cancer Empowered).
Happy New Year!